The Invitation to Stop

When I first met my teacher many years ago, she invited me to stop. To stop trying to create a “me”, an identity that is worthy, acceptable, successful, lovable. To stop, for just a moment, trying to stay safe. In this stopping what was avoided appeared - terror of being cast out, terror of death and annihilation. All of the energy focused on creating a better “me” was in avoidance of this terror. In a moment of truly stopping any creation of identity, opening to this energy that gets called fear and terror, something else was discovered. The whole world fell away, all identity - internal and external - revealed itself as nothing at all and what is left is vastness, endlessness, emptiness - mysterious and nameless.

Now the edge is staying true - aware of the energetic pull to recreate a “me” & feeling the immediate suffering when this is touched, held, believed to be real. And the absolute freedom of not touching any of it at all.

Deep gratitude to you Gangaji - always.